Fritz's Quest To Find The Secret Build

Remorseful frustration

What the fuck am I doing with my life

Habitual Self Lobotomy

There will never be another you. I have accepted that. but the pain never ends. to end the pain, means betrayal. pain requires sacrifice. Keeping it only sharpens the blade. Yet the blade keeps me alive. But is it life when survival is the goal? How much longer can I endure? Nobody cares anyhow.

 LOSER IM A SECRET LOSER L O S E R I M  A S E C R E T L O S E R

 Today I realized that I am the kind of person you should take pride in ditching. The bad example. That one person you see in social media posts that you should avoid. It all makes sense now.

Is there anything that could make everything numb? Something that I could just swallow and wake up the next day? Or just not wake up at all?