Fritz's Quest To Find The Secret Build

 LOSER IM A SECRET LOSER L O S E R I M  A S E C R E T L O S E R

 Today I realized that I am the kind of person you should take pride in ditching. The bad example. That one person you see in social media posts that you should avoid. It all makes sense now.

Is there anything that could make everything numb? Something that I could just swallow and wake up the next day? Or just not wake up at all?

You can accept things for what they are. But that doesn't mean you'll feel better. That's good. Feeling better was never the goal. Pain and suffering is.

I wonder what cutting yourself feels like. I hope it rushes my adrenaline. I'm needinf a new rush.

 I'll never be _______ enough like them. A. Cool B. Good C. Interesting D. Happy

 The memories don't fade I only face deeper regret still. Deluding myself to return back to those days. There is nothing to fix This is reality. Face it or continue deeper into the pit.

 I'm so happy, because today I found my friends. I'm so lonely, it's everyday for all I care.

 Oh here it comes again. I feel like nothing is going forward whatever what I do I just found out that I'm one of those people that didn't move on from high school. I don't know, Maybe I'm just assuming things. Days progress fast and slow Yet it remains the same Dull and cold All I could do is numb the emotions But I can't cry anymore When it happens again and again I don't cry to the sorrow I laugh in despair  Like an existential hysteria It's horrifying  I never believed in the sort the worst I could previously do was rummage in frustration This is now a new low.

Ain't nothing gonna change that Ain't nothing gonna fix that

 High Functioning Depression Machine

 Another wasted day Whatever

Down in a hole Feeling so small Down in a hole losing my soul